I went to see Hank Williams III. On Valentines Day. I bought the tickets with the intention of wallowing. I didn't expect to do the opposite. But then things seldom turn out the way you plan.

He played at Mohawk Place. The closest thing to a honky tonk in Buffalo. although to be honest it is really more of a dive bar. It's a good venue for this kind of thing.

Hank was touring this time with his country band and assjack. The country set was spectacular. he played the songs I wanted to hear and played one of his grandpa's songs that you just don't hear anywhere. It really is creepy how much he looks and sounds like his grandpa. the transition set was exactly the kind of agressive music you would expect of someone who calls his music hellbilly. The assjack set was just good solid thrash metal.

the most interesting thing was that I didn't feellike wallowing at all once i got there. In fact i felt alright for the first time in a long while. I felt ready to start looking again. and i knew exactly what i wanted. I had no idea how to start but I at least i knew what i wanted and that Idid want it. life is so much easier with a target.

Alright, so the links at the side aren't all working yet. The archives are functional. The reading list got lost and has to be drawn up from scratch.
That takes time.
I do have time but quite a lot of it is spoken for by other things and people. I'll get there eventually. The about me page is gone also. Most everything that was there is wrong or changed now. I am not sure what to do about that. That will take more than just time. It will take some deep introspection, something i have too much time for these days.

the results of that introspection will mostly be posted here. If you know me in meatspace that type of stuff generally gets held back. It won't be here. So be careful what you read here. I don't mean to hurt anyone, but I'm not going to put limits on my self because of who may or may not be reading. That kind of crap is why i stopped writing here in the first place.

The stuff in the archives is unchanged. Typos, bad grammar, and old feelings are all still there for you to peruse, even if i don't feel like that anymore. I find it interesting to look through them and see what i was thinking about at a particular time. The quality of posts, like me and most other things, is pretty variable. there is a decided turn towards lower quality posts after9/11/01, but not for the obvious reasons. I made some far reaching and, in retrospect, less that great life decisions two days before that and the fallout took quite a long while to manifest itself. Anyway read them if you're curious. go away if you're not.

Today's recommended meditation from the sufi order is "it is disclosure of one's own spirit that unveils all things"

In that vein and to that end I am back blogging. There have been many moons and not a few events in between the last post and this one. Some of which I will eventually write about. Disclose even. But not today. Today it is good enough to be back.